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For those of you who actually read my journal here is the latest updates in my life. Obviously the month from Hell of July decided to follow me into August. I just never had a chance to recover from all the deaths in July. The one that hit me the hardest was the person I had been looking for ever since I go Wi Fi. I never would pay to get her address and tried several ways of trying to find out through the phone where she might live but July was a cruel month and for the first time it came up with something new. It came up with her Obituary. She had not even lived two months after her 48th birthday. We grew apart when she went to College and I went to work.
I know I should have tried to have visited her and we just drifted apart when she did not like the boy friend I had chosen at the time. I figured I would always have a day with her and we would laugh about all the time that had been wasted. We always had a good time when we were together and would go to Museums and Greenfield Village. This is the only person in the world who could get me to go to a place that has no electricity and served warm Cider the day after Christmas because it was her Birthday. I of course did not want the Cider and kept insisting as I took the Sugar Cookie that it was not a good idea. The cookie was great unfortunately the Cider had an accident. I made it look like a dog did it and that is all I will say. We had a great day that day ending further away for dinner because we had a coupon. I cannot tell you how many miles we traveled in our friendship but I am so glad I remember those good memories. Denise you have really pissed me off but I guess you got the last laugh.
So in July I think I knew about three or four people who died and I cannot even tell you the amount of pets that passed last month as well. I did save my front walk from getting ripped out and replaced on the same day that mom said she wanted to go to emergency. Well the cement has not been replaced but I know they had to have pulled a permit because the Twp. Supervisor only checks to see if any work has started and has not sent out the hounds to charge me for crappy cement. So I do not know when but i will be getting new cement at one point in time this year and the good news for that is I am getting a new drive way. One that should have been replace when I was a kid has risen even more do to the storms these last few weeks. So it will be nice to be able to actually walk on my drive way with heels or in bare feet and not worry about the damage.
August is kicking my butt as well but with a better sense of humour thanks to Bubbles the penguin. Another old family friend has died. Mom's Physical Therapy is going about as well as expected, even as the Therapist was asking if I wanted to continue mom's therapy he was shaking his head no. I knew what he meant, mom is not going to get any better. This is it for her so we do this for two more weeks and then he will miss us because not all his patients sing "Marching to Pretoria" in order to get her to do her exercises. He will also miss out on the fresh cucumbers and tomatoes I have been giving him because mom can only eat so many.
Mom's sleeping has also become so unpredictable I never know when I am going to be able to type anything. If she falls asleep with the TV on I can type just about anything. When she is trying to get some rest and the TV is turned down then every little noise wakes her up. NOT the big noises like the kids playing basketball behind her head and the ball ricocheting off the houses. It is me typing or putting my cup down. It is me clearing my throat and her eyes pop open in such surprise that I have gone back to writing by hand. I turn the light off but colour by the light of the TV. I just got a new LED lamp that shines to beat the band and does not disturb mom so I can go back to reading books as well. I just cannot get onto dA as much as I would like and I miss my friends a lot.
You are the ones who have helped keep me insane for so long that the loneliness at times is unbearable but I will still do anything to help mom. I do not know what has happened to her Dr. he has not shown up since I have been receiving this other help so everyone should know how impressed I am with him right now. I might be getting some help where I can go out as long as I can pay the price. I finally got a Social Worker who is trying to get me help instead of handing me all the paperwork and saying good bye so I might have a little hope for him. He is a nice person no matter what. I will miss them both when they are finished helping mom. Mom will be happy though and I guess that is what counts the most. Me right now I am just still feeling a little tired and lost.
I will end this hopefully on a high note and that is that I am suppose to be going to the Renaissance Festival this weekend. I am also getting a new outfit as well because I have lost weight and need a new one for the more elegant look of a Princess. I will be going as a Belly Dancer/Gypsy this weekend and will be getting at least a new top for that outfit as well. Most of all I will be getting oils, fairy dust and gifts for me and friends. When it comes to the Festival I always come first. I have spoiled myself that way. So here's hoping that things get better next month and having fun this weekend.
I know I should have tried to have visited her and we just drifted apart when she did not like the boy friend I had chosen at the time. I figured I would always have a day with her and we would laugh about all the time that had been wasted. We always had a good time when we were together and would go to Museums and Greenfield Village. This is the only person in the world who could get me to go to a place that has no electricity and served warm Cider the day after Christmas because it was her Birthday. I of course did not want the Cider and kept insisting as I took the Sugar Cookie that it was not a good idea. The cookie was great unfortunately the Cider had an accident. I made it look like a dog did it and that is all I will say. We had a great day that day ending further away for dinner because we had a coupon. I cannot tell you how many miles we traveled in our friendship but I am so glad I remember those good memories. Denise you have really pissed me off but I guess you got the last laugh.
So in July I think I knew about three or four people who died and I cannot even tell you the amount of pets that passed last month as well. I did save my front walk from getting ripped out and replaced on the same day that mom said she wanted to go to emergency. Well the cement has not been replaced but I know they had to have pulled a permit because the Twp. Supervisor only checks to see if any work has started and has not sent out the hounds to charge me for crappy cement. So I do not know when but i will be getting new cement at one point in time this year and the good news for that is I am getting a new drive way. One that should have been replace when I was a kid has risen even more do to the storms these last few weeks. So it will be nice to be able to actually walk on my drive way with heels or in bare feet and not worry about the damage.
August is kicking my butt as well but with a better sense of humour thanks to Bubbles the penguin. Another old family friend has died. Mom's Physical Therapy is going about as well as expected, even as the Therapist was asking if I wanted to continue mom's therapy he was shaking his head no. I knew what he meant, mom is not going to get any better. This is it for her so we do this for two more weeks and then he will miss us because not all his patients sing "Marching to Pretoria" in order to get her to do her exercises. He will also miss out on the fresh cucumbers and tomatoes I have been giving him because mom can only eat so many.
Mom's sleeping has also become so unpredictable I never know when I am going to be able to type anything. If she falls asleep with the TV on I can type just about anything. When she is trying to get some rest and the TV is turned down then every little noise wakes her up. NOT the big noises like the kids playing basketball behind her head and the ball ricocheting off the houses. It is me typing or putting my cup down. It is me clearing my throat and her eyes pop open in such surprise that I have gone back to writing by hand. I turn the light off but colour by the light of the TV. I just got a new LED lamp that shines to beat the band and does not disturb mom so I can go back to reading books as well. I just cannot get onto dA as much as I would like and I miss my friends a lot.
You are the ones who have helped keep me insane for so long that the loneliness at times is unbearable but I will still do anything to help mom. I do not know what has happened to her Dr. he has not shown up since I have been receiving this other help so everyone should know how impressed I am with him right now. I might be getting some help where I can go out as long as I can pay the price. I finally got a Social Worker who is trying to get me help instead of handing me all the paperwork and saying good bye so I might have a little hope for him. He is a nice person no matter what. I will miss them both when they are finished helping mom. Mom will be happy though and I guess that is what counts the most. Me right now I am just still feeling a little tired and lost.
I will end this hopefully on a high note and that is that I am suppose to be going to the Renaissance Festival this weekend. I am also getting a new outfit as well because I have lost weight and need a new one for the more elegant look of a Princess. I will be going as a Belly Dancer/Gypsy this weekend and will be getting at least a new top for that outfit as well. Most of all I will be getting oils, fairy dust and gifts for me and friends. When it comes to the Festival I always come first. I have spoiled myself that way. So here's hoping that things get better next month and having fun this weekend.
Not Feeling Better/Boy Do I Have A Headache
So many things have happened in the last couple of years. Aw Hell, if you look at it from my point of view it is six years. In that time I made friends on dA and Facebook. Both the accounts were created to help Mom and I. Deviant art was given to me by phluph. He has been a Deviant for years and knew I had to meet more people. I created the Facebook account for Mom. That way she could keep up with family that was out of town. I would like everyone to know that both did more for me than I could ever expect.
I made real and true friends on both pages. If it were not for devianArt I would never have accepted a friend request from someone I did
This is Now
On Jan. 27th my friend called. Her daughter who was going to mandatory Rehabilitation. Unfortunately the only person who could drive her was her crazy boyfriend. Now remember she is 31 and he is 27. Do you really have to be told not to visit anyone because there are warrants out for you? Well my friend told that guy to stay away from family. Of course no one listened. Well maybe the 2 year old, but she is really smart. So he obviously was not going to make it home in time to take care of the other kids.
Me? I am still not well and going through tests. I lose energy so fast and can be down for days. So it was not until the 7th time it was men
What the Fudgesicle Have I Gotten Into?
So many strange and interesting things have happened to me since my Mom's death. I thought one of the blessings would be connecting with my best friend since 9th grade. I really should have known better than that, nothing ever goes right it seems. Especially when it comes to me and my friend. Like I keep telling people,. "If being a friend were easy, everyone would have one.
While I was at my friend's house, I took over the cooking. I may have forgotten to mention that her mother lived with her at the time. Her mother never knew how to cook. The kids were supposed to do the dishes. I was still wiping myself out but I also wanted to help.
So
Back to Me Again
So five days after the Memorial for Mom, which I really wanted to be a Wake but... My friend who I had not seen in 4 years came to get me. I was on my way to new adventure.
On the first day I met 8 of her grandchildren. She had adopted 3 of them since the last time I saw her. She was also in a new house. Her daughter the mother of the 3 was living in the old house. You would think this would be a happy occasion, right. My best friend for 40 years and I finally get together. My Mom died February 10th and her Dad 15 days later. We really needed each other.
So the idea was to see a 9th grandchild's dance recital. I told her I was too tired to
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY devianART on turning 14
Because I gave up my life to become my mother's caretaker, I would never be the deviant I am today if it were not for phluph. I had been taking care of my mom for a year and he noticed that I was not reading as much but I was colouring a LOT and often. He also noticed that I was not talking to anyone and I was not getting out to socialize so he brought deviantART to me.
I was colouring Knot work pieces hand drawn from the Renaissance Festival. Unfortunately I never submitted any because of the paper being too long. I also was doing what I like to call my Lines and Designs and this was one of the first pieces I submitted.
Back then I really had no idea what deviantART was about and after posting this and a couple of other pieces, I thought I was not good enough for dA. It had never occurred to me that I had to develop a following. I thought that someone would comment on at least my first few submissio